o.. the happy tears Ü

i don't know whats wrong with me.. maybe its the going to therapy thing.. i dunno.. but i cry quite freely and at the silliest of things.. heard of people that cry at commercials? yup. thats me. i cried at a picture book in church this last sunday- it was about a little boy growing up and learning about going on a mission, and telling his mommy he would miss her.. and *sigh* i still wanna tear up. i just kept thinking about when i'm a mom and with my boys, and hopefully they'll love me that much, and then about nate and how proud i am of him and then how awful i feel for his mom cause i don't feel like he pays her as much attention as he pays me. my point- i cry at lots of things.
so monday- i checked the mail at my mom's house- i've been trying to check it a lot lately because i'd asked nate to send my mail there because i'd be moving there. i was shocked to actually find two letters! (well, question cards- i'd sent him a package with pre-addressed envelopes and cards with questions on them- his job was to fill out a few cards and send it to me so that i would actually get something from him.) which i was totally and completely blissed out with. but looking through the mail i found a notice that there was a package waiting at the post office. the notice said it was a large envelope and i was so excited because at the very least it would have pictures in it. well, in an attempt to get to the post office early i woke up with heather and exercised and was off for the post office of pg! my favorite mail person greeted me and went to find my envelope- but came back with a box!! i was shocked and scared to ask that maybe he had the wrong thing- but it said nate's name and the barcode matched and so he handed me my box and i rushed to my car and preceeded to rip open the box with my keys. packages are sweet- don't get me wrong- but they feel kinda like a waste of money- and i would really rather just have letters. but my package had letters:) and when i finally saw the stack of them i was in tears- lame i know. but after not receiving a paper letter since early november- i feel pretty entitled to tears. they were happy tears Ü. so i sat and looked through what he'd sent me.. and well.. i'm pretty darn happy. and the cards are pretty darn cute. and i'm pretty darn sure that i love that man. i can't wait for mother's day. i only hope that i don't cry then too...